i remember praying to God to send me an angel. I was so desperate for someone that i even said i don’t care if i get heartbroken. i just want to know what IT feels like.
IT was everything I imagined and more. I finally found out what it meant to be happy with someone. I finally got that feeling that people get when they KNOW they’re with someone special. I never had that with anyone else. it was so PERFECT.
and then it ended. being heartbroken was unlike anything i could have imagined. it SUCKS.
how long are you suppose to be heartbroken for? is this normal? am i over reacting. what is this? i hate this…
i don’t want to be hurt anymore. this is the saddest state my heart has ever been in.
who am i? this isn’t me.
i went on Facebook and see that you’re in a relationship 34 seconds ago. I want to run away. I feel stupid. i want to delete my Facebook, tumblr, and twitter to get away from everything. I don’t want to cry because I’m done wasting my tears on you. All i can think about is how i wasted so much time on you. I just want to be genuinely happy again. But I really do hope that your happy. I know my time will come. Hopefully one day soon, because I’m so tired of all of this. Praying that God sends me someone special. Trust in God always.
I hate when you’re trying to get over someone but then they follow you on twitter -_- I’m so confused. Now I see you all over my newsfeed. And it’s gets weird. Because you tweet the shit that I want to tweet, and then it becomes a tweeting competition…. Like WTF, I was perfectly fine before you followed me. And now I can’t post quotes about you because it’d be so obvious. LOL give me my fucking twitter back! And then it gets worse!! One of your friends from school is also following me. Don’t get me wrong, I love her! She’s like the sweetest girl ever and we get along so well but how do I go about this?? Do I talk to her? Because I don’t even talk to you and you’d be like WTF why is she talking to my friends?! Da fuck mannnn
I post things on my twitter about you. Now I can’t. Aghh fucking damnit. And now your always on my feed. Fucking great.
I’ve been trying to avoid you, forget you, move on from you… because you dropped me remember? So why are you doing this to me now. You’re fucking with my mind and Im going to have expectations again and I don’t want to be disappointed AGAIN. I don’t want to have to have hope that theres still something unless there really is. You left me before, you can do it again. I’ll admit that i think about you all the time, and I’ll compare everyone to you. But I trust that time heals all wounds. But you’re coming back in to my life and fucking this up. But I think deep down I really want you to.
Today the sun is shining and the skies are blue. And I had a genuine smile on my face today, it came out of no where. I haven’t smiled like that in a while. I think I’m getting better. Slowly but surely, I will be happy again. Stay positive <REY3
I think I’ve lost the ability to be happy, the feeling of butterflies in my stomach, I use to smile to myself, I use to be happy. I don’t know whats wrong with me, and why the fuck is it effecting me this much. I hate this emotional roller coaster that Ive been riding since the new year. 2012 is not my year. Ive just had heartbreak after heartbreak, I don’t know how much more I can take. And every goddamn song brings back so many memories. Those memories made me so happy, the happiest that Ive ever been and now looking back at them hurts so much. I wonder if the things that remind me of you, remind you of me. Honestly, I think about us every damn day and now I’m so sick of it, I’m emotionally drained. I don’t want to think of you as an asshole because I know you’re not, and I pray that you don’t think of me as a bitch because that would be just terrible. I don’t know what went wrong…. I just wished we talked it out.
I was so close to having everything I ever wanted. I feel so pathetic feeling like this because you probably don’t give a shit. I never write shit like this but as I continue, Im feeling better. I put you on a pedestal, because to me you were were perfect. And now i’ll compare every guy to you. I think the only way to get over this s to find someone else who is better, but you made it so difficult.
I was happy before you came, I’m trying to be happy now. I just want to be happy again.
